JJR5513 - 40 - Hospital - Hope chest - His Presence

The War Council members had vacated one by one from my sanctuary until finally it was just me kneeling there with the assortment of objects on the shelves. There was no clutter and there was no stench, only the memories of events and incidents that would take me to the Throne of Grace. As I rested there, the objects began to speak His love to me (please note – The sanctuary is not stationary nor stagnant, not just for my personal comfort, it is always in flux, and it is always for the edification of others … “But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and be ready always to give an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear:” I Peter 3:15 ).

Our devotional life is KEY – our intimate time in the Word of God will take and make sense of every object on the shelf of our prayer closet, our spiritual supply pantry, our sanctuary. This intimate connection to Him will take us to the supply via a song, a sight, a smell, a sound … His spirit will trigger a connection to His heart, for others, that will bring great encouragement in the Kingdom. (Please bear with me, and walk with me through a “sanctuary” moment!)
 
Friday Night, the evening after Thanksgiving, I was on my way to stand near a family dear to my heart, whose hearts were swaying in the emotions of the loss of a high-school sweetheart,“best friend”and Wife, a Mom, a Grandmother(Neena), a sister, … we could go on and on … She was truly a beautiful soul and a gift in the Kingdom. … ( I prayed: “O Lord, I am your pitiful servant, the least of these, I have nothing of myself to offer them … come to me for the sake of yours!”)
 
In the midst of a song that spoke to me of the love of childhood sweethearts, and tears flowing down my face … the “sanctuary” opened: There, right in front of my face, was a Pennsylvania license plate “JJR 5513”.  It stared at me long and hard at a “red light wait”at the end of an interstate ramp. This pulled a memory off of the shelf of my attic rescue that opened the door to this sanctuary – {the plate read} JJR (My initials) – 5/5/13 (5/5/73 reminder); 40 years ago in May of 1973, I trusted Christ in my first visit to the prayer closet and He has never turned His back on me nor abandoned me. (I then prayed with assurance: “O Lord, You ARE there for these precious kids of yours!”)
 
The “40” then carried me to another May when I was 40. The “40” found a memory on the pantry shelf of His tender care, where I received a big reset while threatened by cancer. The Threat was soon neutralized by the miraculous movements of God that even made glorious use the mistakes of men. Weeks under the care of Heaven-led intruders, I would be loved and healed as these agents of the river of God's love would flow through the hospital room. This “hospital” visit memory would immediately take me to another object on the shelf: the lonely maternity hospital room of the wife of a first semester Bible college student.

Here I will always stop and weep … for this was a memory of my beauty, my love, my wife; and she was tormented by empty arms that had longed to hold her new born baby boy. As our little guy was whisked off to emergency care miles from us, she lay there in a bed of tears. In this bed she would sense His awesome “presence” literally wrapping His arms around her and cradling her in that time of grief. This “hospital” memory would bring me face to face with a tiny “hope chest” of tears that would open our hearts to the unsearchable riches of His love. We would experience “His Presence” again and again, and this little “hope chest” would be carried in our hearts from that little grave-side to so many others that would follow.

As I am moved again and again to carry the sanctuary through every step of life, This “Presence” memory has never stayed on the shelf … but this “Presence” has been there to help us with many “hospital” rooms, bed sides, and “hope chests”. His Presence in our lives is the true gift of the Sanctuary.

“Before the mountains were brought forth, or ever Thou hadst formed the earth and the world, even from everlasting to everlasting, Thou art God. (Thou art God) (Jesus)Lord, Thou hast been our dwelling place in all generations. (Thou art God, Thou art God, Thou art God)Psalm 90:2,1

HLFA,
  
Jeff

“Let not your hearts be troubled, you believe in God believe also in Me (Jesus). In My Father's house are many mansions, if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again ,and receive you unto Myself; that where I am , there ye may be also.” Jesus' Words from John 14:1,2,3

War Council in the Pantry(Psalm 83)

I stood there looking at the burning pile of undefinable trash that I had removed from my sanctuary (my prayer closet). I felt pretty good about myself, and was growing in confidence for the future as the smoke of the contents arose to the sky. Then I heard the sound that I had longed for, I heard the Cry from above and the cry from my heart both echoing “Here I am!” So, I ran as quickly to my Sanctuary as humanly possible to meet with my God.

Pausing at the door to catrch my breath, I noticed that it was just slightly ajar. Cautiously, I peered through the space of the opening, fearful of what may have slithered back into my prayer closet. What I saw, though, caught me off gaurd. What? There appeared to be a team of counselors who had assembled themselves together and were respectfully awaiting my return. (My naivety had blinded me to the reality that this assembly was there to begin a war council against the Almighty, and I was the missing component. They wanted my buy-in.) Trust me when I say this – I was truly blindsided because their appearance and input was so close to the truth that it seemed feasible.

Psalm 83:5,6,7,8 - “For they have consulted together with one consent: they are confederate against Thee: the tabernacles of Edom, and the Ishmaelites: of Moab, and the Hagerenes: Gebal, and Ammon, and Amalek: the Philistines with the inhabitants of Tyre; Assur also is joined with them: they have holpen the children of Lot. Selah”.

Let me introduce you to the council via their counsel(see what you think – they are gathering in every one of our prayer closets to annihilate faith at its beginnings, its choices, and its foundation):
1. Sir Edom - “Let's get real, we are all incurably human! Suck it up!”
2. Chancellor Ishmael - “God might Hear, but then again He might not!”
3. Prince Moab - “God is a Father, He has so many children, and He may love others more!”
4. Princess Hagerene - “We are destined to be wanderers - commit to no one!”
5. Mr. Gebal - “There are limits and boundaries that we must maintain! Keep our distance!”
6. Mrs Ammon - “It takes a tribe, a village! Just one person cannot make a lasting difference!”
7. Duke Amalek - “The Valley is where we need to stay, it is where we always end up anyhow!”
8. Duchess Philistia - “We must always be in mourning, roll in our ashes, bear the consequences!”
9. King Tyre - “We must always be a Rock, be strong and show no weakness!”
10. Ward Assur - “We are just a step in the process,keep in step, it matters not who we step on!”
11. Prince Lot - “This council will give you a covering! Play it safe in our wisdom, don't take risks!”
                                                                  SELAH:
Think about it! Make no league with these false advice givers. Make war against them, cast them out of your sanctuary! “Thy Word have I hid in my heart that I might not sin against Thee” Psalm 119:11 Half truths are truly not true even if they seem to have proof at the very core of who we are and how we naturally respond. God's way is not man's way. We must truly seek the whole counsel of the LORD in His Word, in all that we say and in all that we do. If we are truly His by faith in Jesus Christ then we must allow His word to permeate our lives and living ( “Let the Word of Christ dwell in you richly{extravagantly}”- Col. 3:16).

We will live in moments of conflict no matter what we do (In this world we will have trouble). The advice of this present world will bring strong persuasion into our lives that can create conflict in the direction that we really do not want to have conflict, Heavenward. Make no league with the wisdom of this world and be courageous in your “Scriptural” thinking and living … Jesus has Overcome the World.

Listen to the Psalmist’s final words of desire for this council of war, this council of error. Psalm 83:17,18 - “Let them be confounded and troubled for ever; yea, let them be put to shame, and perish: That men may know that Thou, whose name is JEHOVAH, art the most high over all the earth.”

Let's stay close to the Lord daily to have this council confounded and troubled; and their words put to shame and put to death in our lives.

{As I fell to my knees before the Lord in my sanctuary, submitting my heart to Him, these imps from Hell left my sanctuary one by one.}

HLFA,

Jeff

Defiled Sanctuary

How in the world could the door be jammed so tightly? Finally after some circumferential prying, the door exploded open. The force was so devastating that I was thrown on my back and immediately pinned to the ground by the most fowl smelling trash that had ever introduced itself to my wary senses. This was my prayer closet?

Just the exploding door and the trash would have been bad enough, but when I could clear the refuse from my sight, all manner of distorted and disfigured creatures began tumbling out, rolling over me, and then running off into the horizon. This was the heart closet, my sanctuary, where I had bowed before my Saviour so many years before. This was my spiritual pantry where I watched the pain, the shame, the scars and tragic memories become newly formed weapons for the Kingdom This is where He allowed me to place these broken things on the shelves for the service of others. I strained so hard to see if these weapons were still there on the shelves. They were there, but it would be some “roll up your sleeves” effort to make them presentable and useful once again. What in the world had happened to my quiet place, my sanctuary?

There was a day when the value or fame of a man was determined by the righteous deeds that he accomplished. Heroes stood for decency and a morally right character. Men of renown took ownership of a personal accountability, the kind of personal accountability that had respect written all over it, and “others” truly mattered.Through the onslaught of the irresponsible media in our current generation, cheers are lifted up for those who set an example of a belligerent attitude of antagonism toward righteousness. They do it "their way" with no thought for others. Wickedness is now the new good and righteous is the new bad. This is carried on to the point where the "heroes" of the day think it is fashionable to bare their fallen nakedness openly, to spit on any Godly image of parenting and home, to "flip" the proverbial finger toward the sky with a closed eye, and to take full advantage of the impoverished and abused to fuel their own self-centered cause (Proverbs 30: 11-14).

I truly think there is a reason for this that hits close to home with every believer. We have opened our "sanctuary" to these infectious attitudes of strangers, and turned a deaf ear to the voice of God.

I am not talking about our Churches, they are just the intersection of infection. No, I am not talking about our homes, they are just the incubator for disease. There is so much fighting in these quadrants that it sickens the heart of God and grieves the Spirit of God. The list of petty things we argue and fight over is overwhelming. Our public displays of personal displeasure empowered by our raunchy attitudes toward differences in ministry styles and parenting skills almost rivals the world's indecent performances. The Church and the Home are no longer safe because the Sanctuary is oozing with the stench of Hell and it is permeating all we say and do.

I am talking about the sanctuary of our heart.

Our brethren offend us. The Bible bores us. Spiritual conversations rock us to sleep. The "clutter and crap" in our sanctuary has literally piled its way to the door with NO room for the Holy. This infectious attitude was welcomed into our "sanctuary" when we were too lazy and/or too distracted to continue to adorn our sanctuary with the truth and praises of our God from His Word.

“Come and let us return unto the Lord: for He hath torn, and He will heal us: He hath smitten, and He will bind us up.” Ho 6:1 "Lift up thy feet unto the perpetual desolations; even all that the enemy hath done wickedly in the sanctuary...O let not the oppressed return ashamed: let the poor and needy praise thy name". Ps. 74:3,21

HLFA,

Jeff

“There is too much focus on the superficial. Too much emphasis on the appearance. With so little investment in the heart, at the first disappointment we encounter we may drain the supply of personal grace”. (J.J.R.)

“There will be no nerve touched and no healing in sight as long we focus only on the issues outside our hearts and stay focused on the faults of others”. (R.S.)

God Moments or Head Games (perhaps the connection is broken)

Have you ever played the game of prophetic movement? This game is played in our heads as we try to go in a direction that we think or hope is God's direction. The game begins when we have a sense that God wants us to do something. It gains traction as we begin to move, and our first steps are not hindered. With those unhindered steps we tell ourselves it must be a “God Thing” because we have moved forward with no resistance. The game ends ever so quickly though when a disappointment collides with our version or prescription of a successful walk with God; and failure to connect with a successful “God Moment” will be further solidified when well-meaning soothsayers add their pronouncements of doom and gloom to our “misfortune”. So quickly we agree and pronounce our own self disqualifying prophecies. The game is over.

For example (though trite): It is 1:15 AM, I will know if the Lord wants me up to spend a unique session with Him. How? When I stand up, reach out, find my tag-less Tee shirt in the dark, pull it over my head and it is not on backwards. For if it goes on backwards, He wants me to take it off and go back to bed. It matters not that when the lights come on, the shirt is inside out or that it wasn't even my shirt (man , does that burst my bubble).

Each of us is wired uniquely, and we all want a special touch from God to reassure us that we are going in a direction that He blesses(you may be saying “not I”, but you would just be lying to yourself or playing one more psyche game hoping that God would do just the opposite). In that unique wiring of the fabric of our lives (not cotton), God finds pleasure in us. He desires our uniqueness. He created that uniqueness. He wants us to live in daily awe of that unique connection He has created.

Psalm 139:16 - “Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect: and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none.” {By the way stop here for a moment if you can and get a cup of your favorite hot drink, pull out the Bible and re-read Psalm 139. Bask in the amazing thoughts of the Psalmist as He discovers in his soul that unique connection.}

The events of our lives are so uniquely fashioned and orchestrated by the Lord, that if recognized, we can see He has His loving finger prints all over the moments. His plans to love us are written into every breath we experience. Let me give you some simple insight on how He moves ...
  1. First, He meets us where we are. In that meeting He wills or desires that we find and face our inadequacies (“For all have sinned and come short of glory {shining opinion} of God”– Rom. 3:23) Our inadequacies, if we are honest, will cause us to realize that we need Him and His forgiveness. We find the connection is broken.
  2. Second, He captures us by His love. No matter what degree of fallen-ness we have discovered that causes our disconnection, He desires to put us and Him together. (“But God commended His love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners , Christ died for us”. Romans 5:8) Jesus paid for every thing about us that could offend God and spoil that relationship. The reception of The Payment for our violations by His blood washes us from the shame that would eternally separate us from God, and provides the lasting “fix” for our broken connection.
  3. Thirdly, He unashamedly rescues us when we call. His rescue is a permanent commitment to never leave us nor forsake us. He will never disconnect. (“For whosoever shall call upon the name of the Lord (Jesus) shall be saved”. Romans 10:13) This is not a weak commitment from Him that depends on our behavior, but it is totally founded on the character of His love that is fulfilled in Christ. Our "call" out to Him for His rescue from Sin, brings us into an eternal family relationship with Him. He literally and spiritual births of us into His family through the merit of Jesus.
Oh, if only we can rest in the glorious nature of this rescue, and trust the secure connection provided. If so, we will realize that every moment is an acceptable moment to walk close to Him. We will walk through every perceived success and every borne failure not as a qualification or disqualification ritual but as a moment on this side of eternity to know that He is for us and we are for Him. One.

HLFA,

Jeff

Loving-kindness - The Favor and The Shame

Okay.. So the band arrived at the location in plenty of time for the festival; and we were on-top of things in that we were already ministering even before we moved the equipment into the performance area. There seemed to be such a radical response to our sharing the Gospel that tension began to fill the air. There was a shout in the midst of the crowd that said “take a stand or get out!”. The next thing I knew, Josh(my oldest son) and I were right in the midst of an old fashion, fist flinging, snot flying, jaw busting brawl(By the way my wife Yolanda was taking photos through the whole thing). As this scene was in the fulness of it's fury, I suddenly realized we had forgotten all our gear for the show (Go figure!).

As I tried to make my way back through the “crazy” crowd, I was stopped again and again by familiar faced people carrying broken musical instruments. This very strange assortment of musicians all wanted to sign up for our evening worship known as the “Exchange”; all of them wanting to perform for the Lord on whatever broken instrument they were carrying.

Suddenly a calm came over the rambunctious crowd, it parted in two, and Joshua stepped forward. He was obviously shaken, disheveled, and was bearing a “boxing been good to me” nose; but there was a peaceful ear to ear smile that carried the message of the moment. Standing in his battered glory he said, “We are Okay; now we can worship!” With pride I reached out to touch his battered face and …. I WOKE UP!
                      O God, Thou art my God; early will I seek thee (early will I seek thee):
                      O God, Thou art my God; early will I seek thee (early will I seek thee):
My soul thirsteth for thee, my flesh longeth for thee, in a dry and thirsty land … where no water is.
                      O God, Thou art my God; early will I seek thee (early will I seek thee):
                      O God, Thou art my God; early will I seek thee (early will I seek thee):
To see … Thy power, ….and Thy glory, so as I ...have seen Thee … in the sanctuary.
                      O God, Thou art my God; early will I seek thee (early will I seek thee):
                      O God, Thou art my God; early will I seek thee (early will I seek thee):
Because …Thy loving-kindness ... is better … than life, my lips shall praise Thee where no water is.                        O God, Thou art my God; early will I seek thee (early will I seek thee):
                      O God, Thou art my God; early will I seek thee (early will I seek thee):
{Sorry you can't hear this song as performed by Blushing Well – but it is based on Psalm 63:1,2,3}

The last verse line was singing in my heart as the dream began to fade... “BECAUSE” – the cause, what is the cause of true Worship? “THY LOVING-KINDNESS” - There is only One source “God” - but the Hebrew word for loving-kindness carries the weight of “the favor and the shame” (meditate on this awhile). There is both favor and shame that must be borne in an extravagant relationship that “IS BETTER THAN LIFE”.

Pay close attention: The proper response to this loving-kindness is “abandonment”. When we are fully captured by His loving kindness, we will abandon whatever love source we would have trusted prior to being confronted by Him. “God is the cause of true worship with our lips, from our souls, by a loving-kindness that is better than life”. His loving-kindness spans the great gulf that is fixed between here and Heaven. Our connection with Him is permanently established by His Loving-kindness.

His loving-kindness reaches beyond the green and growing, beyond the birth, beyond the relationships of earth, beyond the community of saints, beyond anything that sustains on this side of the veil, beyond our off key singing, beyond our broken instruments, beyond our struggles to unify, beyond our passion to love, beyond our efforts to heal, and beyond our risks to understand. His Loving-kindness has a Name above every name: JESUS! Therefore my lips will praise Him “where no water is”.

HLFA,

Jeff